My Life Has Changed Completely.. (For The Better!!)

Not many of you know me, many none of you. So, let me start by saying, I'm so happy to be alive today. I have found a path, maybe a few, and I feel I am directing myself towards true happiness.

At this moment I have a paused workout on my other screen and had the urge to just get a quick note typed down while I'm rehydrating. It's pretty interesting to see what has changed in the last three months since I started a 16 week IsaBody challenge (Message me if you want to start a healthier life [;  ) And I have to say, I have been making up excuses about my health for a long time. When I first started this I though, ok, this is the one, let's give it my all. And I'm happy to honestly say I have been for the most part! There have of course been highs and lows, but the highs have greatly tipped the scale. Natural endorphins! There's no better thing. Seeing yourself get stronger... There's no real better feeling than that =]

I have about two weeks exactly left till the end of my challenge, and I plan to make the most out of every single day of it! NO MORE EXCUSES! Anyone reading this who is waiting for a wake up call, seriously man, this is it. Today really is the day. DO IT. You will thank yourself for it.

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And here I am again after finishing my workout and having my amazing little shake friend, YUM! Super pumped, so much to get done tonight! I feel like my life has been on the fast track for the last three months and it has no plan on slowing down! Super exciting, I can't wait to see what happens! 

I have been completely focusing on my health, both physical and mental, lately. Strength is the goal, Life is the reason. I want to experience it all, I don't want any physical limitations to hold me back. I want to have the ability to focus on any goal and get it done. First and foremost, physical strength. Second, mental willpower. (These kind of go hand in hand though so possible tie for first..) Third, my vocal abilities, beat mastery (dancing included in that statement) and songwriting skills. (News to you!?). This has become so important to me. Fourth, Of course overall mental fucking kickass-ness. I have lots of computron books to read, so little time. Love the Linux. 

Coffee coffee, I need more coffee and a bit of a shower. Time to head off. I should post more, so many drafts. Do you people like cooking? What kinda things? =] 

Parting note:: I just realized I had two new Google+ friends from my town, Hello friends! 

See you on the dark side..

Meaning

Strawberry Jinx - Strawberry J - KazaarKat

Kazaar started life as an undead mage on a faraway, fairly random server. Living life for five and a half years, the characters name was adopted by the creator. Kazaar became the way I started to identify myself as. The Kat was added just for the off chance of a taken username during any of our future account creations. =] This is true to this day in fact. Links will be added to the side column during the next few days. 

Strawberry J was my start at a new, more widely identifiable gamertag (league, wow, etc). Out of all the fruit I'd identify with, strawberry's both in color and taste are definitely among my favorites, Colorwise, I've been known to dye my hair this pink, fantastic shade. Taste wise, I enjoy this flavor for shampoos and lotions, etc. The J, well, I'm a little Jinxyy. Combined into a perfect package of here I fucking am.

Strawberry Jinx evolved into my new gamer tag and identity. I've always been a Jinx, I've called myself one since childhood. I don't see it as a bad thing. Jinx's are mysterious, 13 is my lucky number and black cats are good luck..

Welcome to my life? Lolz let's see what happens.

What Happened...

...To My Time Today?


Weekdays just feel like a time suck.. Most of the time, I wake up before the sun's over the mountains, hating having to get up from my warm cocoon. I haven't been able to remember my dreams for about nine or ten months now... There's probably a lot of factors for that though. I've been sleeping very soundly at least. Getting ready for work is at least a fairly peaceful routine at this point. Wake up, hit snooze, roll over, turn on heater, pet Fuego (cat), lay in front of heater for fifteen minutes.. Oh that's the best part right? Brush teeth. then hair, yawn, and now it's time for a heater break. Wash face, little bit of makeup and it's time to try to get out the door.

It seems to be impossible for me to get to work at 7am on the dot. I figure since I don't take smoke breaks like 50% of my colleagues (anymore at least. Recently on the quitting team again) trying to make it in at least by fifteen after should suffice. Eh, whatever.. The other reasoning is that at least 2 days a week I stay an hour or two late.

My day to day job is... hard to explain. Everything you'd expect from a service desk. Phones ringing, emails flying, issues, other peoples issues (end users and vendors, urgh), and ID10T errors ALL over the board (Your own department, somewhere in the building, someone outside, no where is safe from this plague!). Blah, blah, blah. I'm not going to jab about a place I don't enjoy, so let's skip to the end. Driving home is always the best part (Aside from the coffee bar and its lovely ladies!); loud music and a quick drive through a pile of traffic.

Once home, I usually end up zoning out and de-stressing for an hour. Time just flies. Whether I'm just laying on my bed (usually petting Fuego), reading or throwing on a show for a bit, it's seriously the best way to forget that eight to ten hours that just happened. Today specifically, I finished Moon Phase (super cute anime) then took a really long shower, testing out some new hair mask deep conditioner. Mmmm, feels so good.

Being single is making my eating a bit interesting. Tonight I made a delicious spaghetti pizza extravaganza. With cheese topping of course. I know, this could be scandalous, but don't worry, it's like 5 meals for me. Super delicious good times. Afterwards I set up some new toys; I did buy a cute little bluetooth keyboard for my kindle, so I can keep this "blog everyday" thing up. It's good to try to keep this expectation of myself. Who knows what could happen! lolz Anyway..

 More anime (Heaven's Lost Property) and some laziness and it's all the sudden super late. Last things on my to do list for the night are bloggy blog blog (yay) and the feeding Mr. Gunnzilla (Officially Charles Gunn II(Gecko friend)). Should I have made an attempt to run to the post office today, but at least I got leftovers made for the next few days.

Well better go make sure that little cutie has some foodstuff. Till next time.

A Few Likes and Dislikes

10 Likes::

• Amazing, soothing music... Whatever mood it may be soothing at that time
• Hot, refreshing showers. The kind you get lost in
• A Delicious meal after a tough but rewarding day
• Compelling conversations that are not a hassle to continue, they just seem to go on and on as both party is enthralled
• Paying all your bills for the month and still having shopping money ;]
• The feeling of a deep stretch through all of your tired muscles
• A book that gets your imagination flowing; more visually compelling than a movie
• Creating a little work of art to call my own; In this case, crocheting a little square =D
• Playing Laser Tag with a group of people without any drama
• Cuddling a kitty cat that's had nothing but sleepy thoughts all day after getting off work

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10 Dislikes::

• Public places that are just grime covered and uncomfortable
• Feeling out of control in any given day to day situation
• Realizing 24 hours in a day is simply not enough
• Meetings one is forced to attend, but never needed to present
• Owning up and putting aside the things you love, for the things you have to get done
• The cold air that invades once you leave the protective bubble of sleep every morning
• Conversations that seem to take place in your personal space, but do not involve you in any way, shape or form
• The need to know what's going to happen next, but being denied that information until it actually happens
• When the best plot line you've read/seen/etc ends in the worst possible way
• Going to sleep every night wondering if something is going to actually happen tomorrow

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Here's a few more of the random thoughts I have floating around up there.

Enjoy.

Some Things

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Daily I enjoy : Video Games, Anime, TV Shows, Movies, Reading, Computers, Cats, Food, Fashion, Make-up, Shoes (yes, they all need a separate shout out), Outrageously long showers, Dancing, Hula Hooping, Music (Trap, Dubstep, Hip hop, Rock, most types of electronic music, almost everything but country and rap) ... There's probably a few other things, I'm just possibly distracted =]

Things I'm trying to make time for : DIY Projects (Jewelry Making, Sewing, Stitch work, Drawing, Painting, Mod Podge, Crochet, there's more I'm just tired lolz), more majestic cooking, My hopes and dreams of a Business to call my own, Fitness, Running, Costuming, Gem Hunting, Hiking, Biking, So so much more...

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I've always considered myself a psychedelic kitty, a crazed child of the night. Someone who... for better or worse, is not the average kat.

Lately I find myself trying to figure out what to do next. How to go from nowhere, to someplace I might actually enjoy being. I think, "Do I need to move? Do I need a new job? A new life?" I'd rather not go through all the hassle.. Happiness shouldn't be about any of that.

Well now, here we are again. What should I do with my days? At this moment, I'm watching anime (Attack On Titan) while thinking about how I should get myself in order.

Recently I've been trying to socialize with groups of people, mainly geeky ladies. Trying to fill my time with motivating people, new ideas, and interesting concepts. It's definitely been getting me off my ass a bit more. Reading new books, going to fun places I've overlooked in the years I've been in this town, and trying new art projects. This has helped get me psyched up for the future and that I haven't experienced anything. Also, Geeks!

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Throughout this relationship (yea, maybe I did go there), I hope to explore many a activity, I'll share some movie and book suggestions, even send you links to spectacular music, blah blah blah I'm sure you can imagine the rest... Actually I'm sure you cannot, Which is why you'll be back. 

See You Space Cowboy..